Here I go…..

…..Am starting this blog as a way of expressing myself through words……..

I have been ill with ME and Fibro for decades and life has become so tedious so I need to vent that and replace what I expel with good stuff….If that makes sense…..I do not want to just hold on the the negative so out I will pour it, on here…..and let it go……I hope….

I know im depressed….life has changed….my son has gone, my brother has gone and so has my best friend…..in different ways and for different reasons….nothing to do with me…there own stuff….My son became mentally unwell  and I couldn’t cope with it, my brother too became mentally ill and im unsure of where his mind is….he has grandious ideas and has been labelled as manic depressive…a new thing with him…..Last year he had major surgery and the professionals believe the trauma triggered something in his mind….he is 63 and has never had mental illness before…..so….and now my best friend has begun working, physically (his choice, he is retired) and cannot cope with any kind of attachment that includes emotions…..especially me as I am very emotional….so….I have no one close now….just professional support when I really need to access it but no one close to share with… so, what do I do, how do you replace people you love……

I am writing this blog………